Freedom from Self
by: Marc Baer
Soon after I became a believer I was given a copy of the devotional classic, My Utmost for His Highest. Its author, seemingly, was Oswald Chambers. Behind that assumption is an interesting story.
Chambers grew up in late nineteenth-century Scotland, seeking a career that would employ his creative gifts. He struggled both to earn a living and to discern God’s will for what he understood then to be his calling, which was to redeem the art world. In that way his love of art and new intellectual passions, including philosophy and psychology, could be brought together. Chambers found resolution in a call to ministry, joining the teaching staff of a tiny Scottish theological college.
As a teenager Chambers had given his life to Christ, but he continued struggling with keeping part of himself from God. At age 22, moved by a talk, he prayed for the baptism of the Holy Spirit, not entirely certain what that meant. In fact what it meant was a very dark night of the soul, lasting four years. With each offering of the things he loved up to God, his inner emptiness only increased. Then he read Luke 11:13, and on hearing a woman at a revival meeting sing, "Touch me again, Lord," he stood up and received the gift of the Holy Spirit. Chambers was born again—again.